Finally I can stop hunting for a job :)

I've been trying to think of a straight path for my future but I have so many options that I keep losing focus. I want to do so much in this one life that I'm given but it's just not possible. So I'm stuck here, trying to pick and chose the best possible route for me to take that will lead me to the most enjoyment and satisfaction. One choice for me is to try to become very wealthy and prosperous with out depending on my family or relatives money, while another path wants me to become more famous and and make a name for my self. These are the two roots of my choices and it branches out from there. So I ask my self... money? or fame?
Money is a straight forward goal and usually if you are good at something money comes a long. It's a trackable goal and you can measure your success by the amount you acquire. But if you just pursue money you will lose sight of a lot of the small things in life that make life worth living. Once you have spent your whole life acquiring money, the later part of your life usually sums up how you lived. You will be spending all your money either indulging in a lavish life style or giving it away to prove you're not greedy. In the past year, I've had a lot of thoughts of getting "rich quick" and it led to a life style that I would have never imagined I would be involved in. I told my self that I would never gamble and I was good up until I moved to Vegas hahaha... I gambled a lot of money and I don't mean 100's of dollars.. 10's of thousands of dollars wasted on a stupid idea and dream. If you're reading this, take it from me, don't gamble. It's not worth the risk and it can totally fuck your life over if you get involved with the wrong people. All these shows on T.V. about gambling and Poker and all that shit, don't get involved. The truth is that only 10% of the gamblers make a profitable living and only 5% can say they are professional gamblers who actually make big money. The rest of the gamblers either lose or break even. With those kinds of odds, it's not worth it! Stay in school and live your life on the straight & narrow.
As for fame, everyone wants to be known for something. As for myself, I've been consumed in the thought of running track. I can't get away from this idea that I can join the USA Olympic sprinting team. It's not just some dream but a plan that I subconsciously and inadvertently have been put in. You can't just start training to be an world class athlete, it starts from an early age. Most professionals unknowingly start their training in grade school and are eventually guided to a successful career in sports. I believe the most successful athletes in the world did not have cookie cutter life styles, they were exposed to traumatic situations that altered their lives and changed them to who they are today.
At any rate, every time I look at the facts of my life, my legs have been trained to perform well. In preschool/kindergarten I remember taking swimming classes when I was clearly not ready for it. In grade school I was extremely fat and I was forced to play football. I could remember not making weight which sounds ridiculous for elementary school football but there is such a thing. Even though with all my excess weight I was able to keep up with the receivers in speed. Now this may seem unreal, but I believe during this time my legs started forming into a strong foundation. The coaches eventually decided to move me into a running back position like a Jerome Bettis type of player. During Jr. High School, I continued to play football but the training was extremely rigorous. I believe I had summer training which was insane because it was over 105 degrees in Fresno Heat. During that year a kid died due to heat exhaustion and they stopped doing the summer program after that. We had to wear full gear and train which made the inside of my helmet seem like 115+. Now mind you, I thought I was superman in Jr. High. Even though my body said I was a lineman my heart was telling me I was a running back so I ran hard every practice. I believe I had mini-strokes which sounds krazy at that age but I didn't know exactly what was going on at the time. At night some times I would cramp up so badly that I could not move for 30 mins because we never had a rest day for a month straight. Sometimes my fevers got so bad that I believed I was going to die but I slept through it and woke up 3 lbs lighter just from sweat. Some days I weight my self before I slept and come out 6 lbs lighter in the morning from extreme fluctuations in my exercise and diet. Anyways, I stopped playing football in high school as I didn't grow laterally and got stuck at about 5'10. Which isn't short but compared to other players I was a midget haha... I continued my training and I was still a fat kid but my time was really good. In my unhealthy state of 200+ I was running miles in 6:15. Sounds ridiculous but I was one fast mother fuker. It was then I realized that if I lost weight I could probably cut my mile time down to 4:00.
Now 4 years after high school I find my self in the best shape of my life. My frame/size can be related to the 2nd fastest sprinter (arguably the fastest sprinter) Tyson Gay. He's about my height and we are similar ratio. Usain Bolt is an abnormally because of his height so he does have a natural advantage but I believe that shorter people are meant to run faster due to stride frequency. I've been doing sprint specific exercises and training regimes to get myself ready for a usa qualifier. I mean honestly, the amount of weight that I squat is ridiculous for my frame/size/weight. I believe all the hardships that I faced as a kid have brought me to who I am today. The next Olympics are in 2012, and I hope that I make a qualifier.
I've been living this secluded life with such a harsh training regime and I really hope that it pays off. I've put myself and labeled my self as an introvert and loser to reap the benefits of this exclusivity.